My Grandma

           Everyone knows death in inevitable. But sometimes it's harder to deal with than other kinds of hardships. Me well, I've gone through my fair share of losses. My grandmother was a great woman, she was kind, gentle, good with words, and well the best woman there was. She made cookies and cakes at Christmas. She was always a good baker, she made my parents wedding cake, she literally could cook anything given a recipe, and some ingredients.
           She always knew when I was lying too. One night my parents were gone on vacation to Myrtle Beach, South Carolina, I arrived home at eleven that night. When she asked where I'd been. I of course said the most bogus lie ever. I told her I'd been out with some friends studying while really I was out with my boyfriend. She saw straight through my deceit and said, "Well that's funny because I called your Braydens mother and she said you all were together."
          I stared at her, my eyes shot straight to the ground in pity for myself and inside I was filled with guilt. She had seen through my lies and was hoping I'd be truthful, well I wasn't. She then said, "Whitney I forgive you, I know your mom and Darrin don't allow you out ever. You gotta trust me though."
            I simply nodded and said sorry like the many times I had before. That moment will always be etched into my mind. That was exactly two weeks before she died. I'll never forget that day. She was driving my cousin back to Washington, Missouri when she suffered a heart attack. They say you know when it's coming like you can feel it before it happens. Well that didn't happen. She clentched her chest in agony as she swirved and hit that tree. She never knew it was coming, it just happened. Doctors told us she didn't suffer long but I know inside they'll never know for sure. I guess I just wish I knew this was coming. I think of all these holidays that pass by. I think of the missing cookies, and the on going laughter. I miss her so much. But I know in my heart God planned this. The bible says that those who believe and accept Jesus and God into there heart go to Heaven. I hope this is true she deserves it. I love her so much and my heart aches when I think of her. But I know she is in a happy place and walking with angels.
                                                             I love you Grandma...